[Dumped...again.]
December 14th, 2003 -- 8:12 p.m.

Wow. I never saw it coming. It just hit me in the face like a sack of bricks. Now, I don't know what to do. There's nothing I can do, really. Nick broke up with me. That's just the way it is. If you really want to know what happened, ask me. I've got the conversation.

I said that I never saw it coming, but yet...As of lately, he hasn't acted the same. He hasn't told me that he loves me, he hasn't been acting the same...Wow. I don't have a boyfriend any more. Tomorrow is gonna be a bitch. I'll have to explain this to everyone. What a way to start off the week.

I don't know what to say. I've got tons on my mind right now. I've got a project to worry about, I've got band...I just want to crawl up under a rock somewhere, and pretend that I don't exist.

Thank you to my friends who took time to listen to me in the midst of all of this going on tonight (ie Kyle, Daniel, Phillip, John). I really appreciate it. Just having someone listen helps a lot.

I wonder what my Mom is gonna say. What are my friends gonna say? I wonder who's even gonna care. All I can do is pray. God is my only outlet right now.

I should go. If I keep on writing like this, I'm gonna say something I don't mean. I have a tendency to do that.

<3

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